Enriching my Odyssey

Sometimes I don’t need big reasons to shed tears, just a little pinch and I am unstoppable. As far as I remember myself, it has always been that way, I could be hurt with a single word (not even a complete sentence). As a kid I was always told that I was morose and I believed it to be true until recently when I discovered ‘you are what you think you are’ and I replaced ‘being morose’ with ‘being sensitive’. I am not sure how many would get it, there are some people with whom we get really comfortable, to the extent that the child in us could dare to reveal itself! What if those people didn’t react to our childlike mannerism and instead termed it childish. It would be like thrashing that child mentally; which would eventually suppress his craving for being cosseted. Probably it was always suppressed, even when this person was actually a child and so he always felt being love deprived no matter how good several other things were.  So the probable solution is to train the mind t...

It’s been really long since I posted anything. Ya posted not wrote as I write almost always when I am flurried but writing something positive needs a deliberate frame of mind and I had decided to start this year with a positive note. It snapped onto me why not thank a friend from whom I learned a lot of things,  so what if mostly over squabbles ;). We parted our ways because we were never on the same page at the same time… I wanted to write so that every time I remember a wound I could heal it up with a good memoir. The first realization I had was that when we trust someone we never feel bad at whatever they say... Even their jokes, their taunts (People who don't get the sarcasm call it), we take everything in a positive stride because we know they care… they’ll be there … I felt how trust is the beautiful bedrock of any relationship and strengthens it… L1: When you trust there should be no space for doubt! Second confrontation just took me aback !! Why ? Till lo...

Last week my mind got so full, as few things turned upside down, little criticism slammed and misunderstandings snowed :(. And here I was with a new set of realizations: All the relationships have to be worked out. No matter how good things are in the beginning, over the time some discordance creeps in and has to be settled; that's how everything grows strong or every strong thing grows :) . Watch people you  surround  yourself with, sooner or later you get a part of them. Even if 'they have lots of knowledge/wisdom' or 'how much you trust them', don't get carried away.  Be what you are! Don’t be overly nice with people you want to keep forever for a ‘sense of belonging’ or ‘he/she might feel bad’ or ‘what would they think about me’.   Keep the secrets. Everyone has their own best friend to share it with :& ;). Criticism & Sarcasm are to make you feel more alive; you still exist, see!!! .  Understand what is to be taken care of but...

In a post before I quoted that ‘ my encounter with love was the most beautiful one ’ …. ya exactly it was … like a beautiful dream … a dream that lasted lil too long that I couldn’t wake up … coz I didn’t want to … I wanted to leave things on time … and time broke it … it played an alarm … whose clock I don’t have …  it’s ringing & is maddening me coz I want to complete my dream.. the groundless forevers that I believed in … but those invisible bonds I kept so close, disappeared … probably they never were … I hope the alarm wakes me up soon..!! I am a dreamer and dreamers have tough time living the real life… blessed are those who see things as they are and not as they want them to be… Another analogy to the situation I felt while walking towards the sea this time… When you want to reach deep waters you can’t run towards it, you walk slowly making your way through the sand, going deep into it with every step you take further & then when you are drowned in ...

OMG  ..this is the limit… you know what happened … ! A flat mate of mine has been famous for pilfering things since the beginning and I was warned by girls before to take care of my belongings as I have this habit of ‘keep & forget’ and then later on bang my head for ‘where did I saw it last ’ :( … When I had entered this house, I had lined up the things to where they belong... of course you would keep handwash & toothpaste near the basin or bodywash in the bathroom … and dishwash in the kitchen ... and the girls mocked... ‘She is new, let her learn where to keep what’ ... I thought they were insane until one fine day, couple of washing soaps just disappeared and I wondered I can’t be that forgetful...  and how foolishly I had been ignoring that all the ‘washes’ were depleting at a very rapid rate..   Another day I caught her red handed filling her jar with the salt packet I had kept in the kitchen ... I was shocked not just for her act but ‘SALT’...

So what is my idea of a perfect day?   There are many and as I read somewhere, ‘You can have it all not all at once’... the gleeful moments of the day that made this one content are here  J   .. Well, little things can turn me on**  J  and these days, rains are enough to drive me crazy for nothing … To add to it, chatter with close buddies on not so worldly topics like ‘music’, ‘which books to buy next’, ‘photography’, ‘our demarcation of mediocre and excellent’ etc.. is such a delight..The M.Phil. going parallel is another satisfaction... Then the pleasure of riding 17 kms on almost potholes free roads amidst the soo romantic drizzles with Bryan Adams playing exclusively in your ears.. ‘little love’ , ‘have you ever really loved a women’ followed by Sheryl crows’ ‘soak up the sun’ .. as if everyone is pepping me up ;) ..OMG what more can I expect :D..   Okay now comes the philanthropic activity of the day ... the phone recharge for a lady...

This is some personal stuff similar to any other post of mine except that this is too direct and I am not sure this should be posted, bt right now my 'all secrets sharer'  Ak might have slept and I could just relish the freedom of being a blogger! What really happened is, I updated my profile pic on FB yesterday and guess what ???        90 likes in 24 hours!! I had to reconsider my beliefs about myself; I look pretty at least after finely editing the picture ;)! Or people had become very active on social networking and I have become lil more popular over time!  Well the ‘first times of life’ are the most exciting and here it was the ‘first time’ close to 100 likes that made me overwhelmed. Though there are friends who get even 300+ but I decided not to bother myself with such comparisons and stay happy with my plate! That’s not the end of the story, as a matter of habit, on close analysis, here ‘likes’, I found around 12 were from ppl who...

The sequel is ready on 'threesome' demand ;) .. This time there are no 'Buts' .. but are the 'lessons learnt' from the repercussions of my overly imaginative and emotional behaviour! (Nuts me !!) 1.        People move on .... … no matter how much they say they love you. They should  J   , shouldn’t they? 2.        Music and Time are great healers*. Good music keeps the mind occupied and helps to pass the time, then time lessens the intensity of your hurts. 3.        Watch your feelings and don’t let them take decisions for you.                                                                            Feelings change but decisions last forever!  4.    ...

In the last few months I have felt these things very often(with some own & some others' experiences), so thought it would be a good idea to list them down for future reference; to later on either giggle at my unripe wisdom or take pride in premature enlightenment… All I mean is that the "But" part always existed but I Realized it lately! Here it goes! 1. You will have complains with everyone you meet..Including your parents, siblings, spouse, best friends… But .. Grumble won’t last forever …so Don’t hurt them.. They are all you have.. (Go and apologize :P) 2. If you really love someone and want to be with them you would do anything to be with them… But .. If you start finding excuses..  There is something wrong !! (Time to rethink :O)  3. We all are different and beautiful creations of God …It’s better to focus on the positive side of any person.... But while making a choice don’t be completely blindfolded by the virtues… (The vic...

Just wanted to give my little brain some rest by squeezing out all the worries on paper—rather on ‘Word Doc’… starts here … Nowadays I am opining, it would have been probably good if I thought less…. Ordered disorders and qualms follow:  “Everyday type”… Over - what to wear, when, with what accessories, among which type of crowd … Over - how to start, what to write, what I m confused about… Also, over - what to write while sending some documents to the manager…and the stuff is          reframed  numerous times… Over - which friend to call, finally none and then this one lands in “stern” type.. Over - my access card so I hunt it in my bag almost daily on walk to workplace,  to finally           “discover”, probably it fell from the chair and escaped my mind.. Over - how to say ‘No’ to a flat mate when she will mistreat my belongings..  so mean of me … “Stern”… Over - wha...