Enriching my Odyssey

It’s been really long since I posted anything. Ya posted not wrote as I write almost always when I am flurried but writing something positive needs a deliberate frame of mind and I had decided to start this year with a positive note. It snapped onto me why not thank a friend from whom I learned a lot of things,  so what if mostly over squabbles ;). We parted our ways because we were never on the same page at the same time… I wanted to write so that every time I remember a wound I could heal it up with a good memoir. The first realization I had was that when we trust someone we never feel bad at whatever they say... Even their jokes, their taunts (People who don't get the sarcasm call it), we take everything in a positive stride because we know they care… they’ll be there … I felt how trust is the beautiful bedrock of any relationship and strengthens it… L1: When you trust there should be no space for doubt! Second confrontation just took me aback !! Why ? Till lo...

So sweetheart rain came again And like always, it brought along, Some hopes, some fun, some memories, Of love, laughter and everything heart can contain! After an endless monotony I felt something new Indomitable spirit of “living in the moment” Still wishing it last a little longer than 'now'...  Discovering self and loving the findings... Crew isn't my cup, I am happy with the few! Like the soothing drizzle, New friendships trying to make their mark! Some budding with innocence, Some fading in new horizons! Finding peace by ‘it won't matter soon’ attitude And trying  not   to solve the puzzle!

If you haven’t walked my road, You’ll not understand my journey! If you don’t understand my journey, You’ll not understand my being! If you don’t understand my being, You don’t have rights to question me! If you don’t have such rights, You can only accept me the way I am! If you can’t do that, Just eff off and don’t turn back !                                            On a light note, my feelings are similar to hers ;)

एक  पुराने  दोस्त  से  सोच  समझकर  मिलने  गए .. और बातों बातों में युहीं कुछ बातें निकलीं ... कुछ  हल्की फुल्की  बातें  हुईं , अजनबियों  के  बीच  जैसे  होती  हैं . . मौसम   और  दीवारों  की … कुछ  पतझड़  कुछ  फुहारों  की , फिर  आदत  से  मजबूर , वही  पुराना  दस्तूर , उम्मीदों  से  कुछ  सच  भी  कह  डाला , और  फिर  पछताने  का  अपना  अंदाज़  तो  है  ही  निराला .. जो  सब  पता  था  , वो  फिर  से   कुछ  इस  तरह  महसूस  होने  लगा … सच  भी  अजीब  है , थोडा  वक़्त  गुजर  गया  तो  नया  सा  हो  चला ... फिर  लगा  जिनसे  उलझनों  के  रिश्ते  हैं   ...

Saw you after long… Million memories came along................., Remembered my first love,had come to an end, My first friend, my sweet heart, my best friend, Hard to believe a girl taught me lesson (Made me comfortable with the hardest truth of life), Bereavement can be overcome, don’t make it depression.. Now you are happy and I too am not sad, Only love isn’t sufficient.. Tried hard but couldn’t make you glad :( .. As I am seeing you after years; don’t know how to react? Again should I try to cross blocked tract ?.. Should I hug you and cry ? Will you wait till Goodbye ? It feels restless to accept the space, Somebody else occupied my place, Will you give me a little new corner? I promise , won’t nag; smile with whatever… No let it be, I have changed my mind, Your silence gave time to unwind, Don’t feel pity, don’t be kind, Several joys yet I can find... I have overcome my fears, Countless more treat me dear, I know you don’t want to come ne...

Eventually fears turned true, Didn't want to lose you, But have to let go, Though I could never show. Will you ever realise ? How hard I tried to be your fren. Perhaps it doesn't matter to you, So it seems like an end. Million things I wanted to share, Inspite of distances tried to care, These are the times of test, I thought you are not like the rest, But you left me in a maze, Now I m hiding tears in the daze. Wish you could see there exists a  magical band, Didnt let you say, and almost always understand, Wished you had an urge to know, Why i curbed it and didnt let grow.. I told you since beginning, But you were not listening, It hurts when you don't say, For all your mistakes: I have to pay....