Enriching my Odyssey

Don’t know what’s inside, Getting too hard to hold, Eyes tried to control the tears, (But they found their way ) It appeared I caught cold ! :P Life seems so obscure, Hope it unwinds easy! May there be truth, Yet all the sores cure! Broken is good, stuck is bad, Enough of hope/faith convictions! No more unfinished stories, That couldn't be written or said!

Above all we all want to be loved, Nothing can console , nothing can pacify, Illogical reasonings of the world Shatter my dreams & make me cry!! I want to break free these walls, They suffocate me to hell, Freedom is what I breath, How can I let my breath fall !! I have a happy life but my faith is shaking, They say 'Time heals' but where is it taking? Immense soul searching and yet clueless! 'Why not' 'where else' 'then when'  ..all answerless............. Don't laugh,,, I am serious!!

In a post before I quoted that ‘ my encounter with love was the most beautiful one ’ …. ya exactly it was … like a beautiful dream … a dream that lasted lil too long that I couldn’t wake up … coz I didn’t want to … I wanted to leave things on time … and time broke it … it played an alarm … whose clock I don’t have …  it’s ringing & is maddening me coz I want to complete my dream.. the groundless forevers that I believed in … but those invisible bonds I kept so close, disappeared … probably they never were … I hope the alarm wakes me up soon..!! I am a dreamer and dreamers have tough time living the real life… blessed are those who see things as they are and not as they want them to be… Another analogy to the situation I felt while walking towards the sea this time… When you want to reach deep waters you can’t run towards it, you walk slowly making your way through the sand, going deep into it with every step you take further & then when you are drowned in ...

If you haven’t walked my road, You’ll not understand my journey! If you don’t understand my journey, You’ll not understand my being! If you don’t understand my being, You don’t have rights to question me! If you don’t have such rights, You can only accept me the way I am! If you can’t do that, Just eff off and don’t turn back !                                            On a light note, my feelings are similar to hers ;)

At times we have everything, Yet something keeps missing…! For spaces too hold a place… Spaces… holding memories’ case.. Memories.. which bring smile… Make the case even more fragile..! Dearest ones leave reminiscences.. And intensify the burden of their absence..! Pondering makes the decisions weak, Makes one feel helpless and meek..! True... choices define our lives… Don’t be so greedy.. No one forever survives..! Laugh out loud .. and understand .. Why some smile and some pretend..! Pray for the best but believe more.. Beliefs are magical in healing sores! Have faith on time..It may vacate the space.. If it doesn’t, you are as good as an ace !

Can you make a painting on a newspaper… ?? Yes may be .. May be beautiful too..!! How will you justify… the indelible base … And avoid the inquiries that chase…?? Guilt is the worst thing… Better be dying bereaved over remorse joys…!! Will the freedom of being alone accompany… ? And strengthen you against broken toys…?? Some situations are tough rather impossible… But so are the tsunami and terrorism… When that is your fate; you have the spirit… But how long will that be alive … to giggle at the sores & drag the sarcasm ??

Life played a prank, Still wondering, Should I THANK?? To laugh at its mystery.. :-D Or forget it like history… Neither lonely nor lost,                                                                              As always.. To all the troubles I am the host, The merry side of such sad times, Enough time to write rhymes, Also … Sweethearts showing their trust… A phase would pass by just.. Happily J … Goodies trying their best, To give comfort and rest, Loved ones.. Praying day n night… For strength to overcome plight, Never thought the positivity it would reap Junk seems expensive.. Fruits look cheap.....

Everything seems changing, Or may be I m not adapting. Or may be the other way round, Going the way where better it sounds. Life is scheduling itself the same as expected, Alas! Its late I can’t help feeling regretted, Wish! I had anticipated the end better, Nothing would be lost n I could be a ‘go-getter’. Never mind, it isn’t yet late, Chalk in your hands and my destiny - slate. If even you are bemused or confused, You may take enough time, Your verdict can’t ever be refused, I love you and forever you are mine. I’ll try but you know the apple of my eye, Help me to decide, to you I cant lie……