Enriching my Odyssey

Sometimes I don’t need big reasons to shed tears, just a little pinch and I am unstoppable. As far as I remember myself, it has always been that way, I could be hurt with a single word (not even a complete sentence). As a kid I was always told that I was morose and I believed it to be true until recently when I discovered ‘you are what you think you are’ and I replaced ‘being morose’ with ‘being sensitive’. I am not sure how many would get it, there are some people with whom we get really comfortable, to the extent that the child in us could dare to reveal itself! What if those people didn’t react to our childlike mannerism and instead termed it childish. It would be like thrashing that child mentally; which would eventually suppress his craving for being cosseted. Probably it was always suppressed, even when this person was actually a child and so he always felt being love deprived no matter how good several other things were.  So the probable solution is to train the mind t...

Last week my mind got so full, as few things turned upside down, little criticism slammed and misunderstandings snowed :(. And here I was with a new set of realizations: All the relationships have to be worked out. No matter how good things are in the beginning, over the time some discordance creeps in and has to be settled; that's how everything grows strong or every strong thing grows :) . Watch people you  surround  yourself with, sooner or later you get a part of them. Even if 'they have lots of knowledge/wisdom' or 'how much you trust them', don't get carried away.  Be what you are! Don’t be overly nice with people you want to keep forever for a ‘sense of belonging’ or ‘he/she might feel bad’ or ‘what would they think about me’.   Keep the secrets. Everyone has their own best friend to share it with :& ;). Criticism & Sarcasm are to make you feel more alive; you still exist, see!!! .  Understand what is to be taken care of but...

Once or more all of us come across situations in life when some friend of ours ends up disappointing us by judging us the way we find hard to accept. Because either we know or we think that ‘this is how I shall be perceived’ or ‘I am not who you are telling me I am’. I am attempting this post to share my experiences of how I think some situations should be handled and whosoever read this please let me know the other better or alternate ways. Whenever you judge a person next time, esp. if it’s a negative opinion try to tell them beforehand instead of waiting for them to make the same mistake again and then feeling victorious over your conclusions, ‘You are like that coz you did it again’. It might satisfy your self esteem for the moment but would not be healthy for the relationship. Of course you too are nice and are trying to save yourself and that’s why you didn't unleash your resentment the first time you started filling your cup! So what if instead of c...

Let go, the memories of shared laugher & pain! Let go, the music which expressed your feelings! Let go, the breaths which snuggled you to life! Let go, the chatter the never ending delight! Let go, the love It is done with hope! Let go, the castles Whose foundations couldn’t be laid! Let go, the precept Sowed would be reaped! Let go, the fears It’s an ephemeral world anyways! Let go, those friendships Which are acquaintances now! Let go, the grudges You have outlived them! Let go, the desires Which have been conquered!! Let go, the sick ones Who are reluctant to cures ! Let go is the key, It lets me be, It sets me free, & leads me to Thee! Mind you: It  isn't e a sy  ! !

Moving away, From the friendships that judge! Getting over, The relation devoid of trust! Waking up, From a deep slumber of fanciful assumptions! Rising above,     The mere right-wrong attitude! Leaving behind, All the guilt & regrets to naivety & credulity! Hugging along, All who stood by! Laughing out, My misconception of ‘Forever’! Walking towards, ‘You’ and budding into a soulful being! I Bloom  J !

The sequel is ready on 'threesome' demand ;) .. This time there are no 'Buts' .. but are the 'lessons learnt' from the repercussions of my overly imaginative and emotional behaviour! (Nuts me !!) 1.        People move on .... … no matter how much they say they love you. They should  J   , shouldn’t they? 2.        Music and Time are great healers*. Good music keeps the mind occupied and helps to pass the time, then time lessens the intensity of your hurts. 3.        Watch your feelings and don’t let them take decisions for you.                                                                            Feelings change but decisions last forever!  4.    ...

In the last few months I have felt these things very often(with some own & some others' experiences), so thought it would be a good idea to list them down for future reference; to later on either giggle at my unripe wisdom or take pride in premature enlightenment… All I mean is that the "But" part always existed but I Realized it lately! Here it goes! 1. You will have complains with everyone you meet..Including your parents, siblings, spouse, best friends… But .. Grumble won’t last forever …so Don’t hurt them.. They are all you have.. (Go and apologize :P) 2. If you really love someone and want to be with them you would do anything to be with them… But .. If you start finding excuses..  There is something wrong !! (Time to rethink :O)  3. We all are different and beautiful creations of God …It’s better to focus on the positive side of any person.... But while making a choice don’t be completely blindfolded by the virtues… (The vic...

I am life... I don’t have a conclusion, The sight you clasp is my beginning Didn't you notice this striking truth!! It is as beautiful as an illusion... I am life… I am unfathomable; I am quiet… Take a deep dip, And live that vigorous bite… I am life... Just where you saw I am born anew,, Every moment I am getting renewed, Come have a flavor of vivacity, I’ll rinse your blues…    I am life., I am you, Where I am shallow, I enjoy making noise… Just like you, I flaunt and rejoice                              I am life, With gifts and blows Beautifying myself Unstoppable I flow… I am life, I have an aim, In merging with the ocean, Accomplish my fruition….

एक  पुराने  दोस्त  से  सोच  समझकर  मिलने  गए .. और बातों बातों में युहीं कुछ बातें निकलीं ... कुछ  हल्की फुल्की  बातें  हुईं , अजनबियों  के  बीच  जैसे  होती  हैं . . मौसम   और  दीवारों  की … कुछ  पतझड़  कुछ  फुहारों  की , फिर  आदत  से  मजबूर , वही  पुराना  दस्तूर , उम्मीदों  से  कुछ  सच  भी  कह  डाला , और  फिर  पछताने  का  अपना  अंदाज़  तो  है  ही  निराला .. जो  सब  पता  था  , वो  फिर  से   कुछ  इस  तरह  महसूस  होने  लगा … सच  भी  अजीब  है , थोडा  वक़्त  गुजर  गया  तो  नया  सा  हो  चला ... फिर  लगा  जिनसे  उलझनों  के  रिश्ते  हैं   ...

All roads blocked… Destination mocks… May not be straight.. But I’ll make my way… Darkness surrounds Fear grows abound, Mere spark of faith, But I’ll light my way…                            Leisure suffocates, Derides hard earned goals, Huff and puff, I’ll breathe my way.. Rejection shudders, Fidgety cripples, With modest assurance, I will revive my way… Hope is skeptical.. Hard to stand ... fiasco!! Before goal turns farcical… I’ll find my way… Pretending to revel, Consumed within… It’s not fictitious, So won’t end long… Mustering faith… I am living my way….

कुछ दुःख ऐसे होते हैं , जिन्हें शब्द नहीं कह पाते, हाव-भाव कह देते हैं , ये दुःख गहरे होते हैं .... कभी भर जाते हैं, कभी खली कर जाते हैं, कभी कुछ पल की बात , कभी एक लम्बी रात .... सब का अपना अपना मिजाज़ , कभी कहानी कभी अलफ़ाज़ , ज्यादातर तोड़ देते हैं, या नए रिश्ते जोड़ देते हैं... हमारी पहचान कराते हैं, तुमसे और दोस्तों से मिलवाते हैं, सबको मौका देते हैं, यादे ताज़ा कर देते हैं, सब दुःख अपने हो जाते हैं, सब्र से दोस्ती करवाते हैं, दुःख में तो सभी रो देते हैं, हमारी तरक्की पे जो खुश हुए वो दोस्त होते हैं, ये जानते हुए भी , सबकी ख़ुशी में चेहरा खिल नहीं पाता, दुःख में जो रोया अक्सर वो ही हमदर्द बन जाता... तुम्हारा दुःख बाँट पायें, तो खुद को खुशनसीब समझें, तुम्हें  और कुछ तो हम क्या दें, बस दुआ है की दुःख कम दें ... कितना अच्छा हो अगर ये दुःख... मेहमान बनके आते  रहें, बस सीख दें और जाते रहें. ज़रूरत तो इनकी भी है मगर, दूर से ही डराते रहें.... तुम्हें और...

dशुरू भी न हुए और ख़त्म हो गए , कुछ अफ़साने कविताओं में लिखे मैंने , पन्नों पर ही रह गए ........ वो आये थे हमारा साथ निभाने , कोशिश अच्छी  की पर खुदगर्ज़ हो गए , खुद तो तन्हा हुए ही ,हमे और भी तन्हा कर गए ....   समझदार थे बहुत बस एक गलती कर गए , हमने कहा था दिल टूटा हुआ है , बोले  अभी ठीक किये देते हैं  , नीम हकीम उल्टा जोड़ गए ............ पहले गम बाँट लो तो, हल्का महसूस होता था .... पर वो तो कुछ ऐसा कर गए , कि हम ,             ना हसे , ना  रोये             ना जागे, ना सोये कहीं दिल  ही नहीं लगा , और कुछ अधूरे से हो गए ............................

All happy songs making sense to me, Celebrating the joys of flying free, Feeling good and light, Not bothered about wrong/right Life is indeed a roller-coaster ride, Enjoy all high and low tides, Truth may not be beautiful always, But sometimes it brings a rectifying phase.. I dream of bringing smiles, Which stay forever and not for a while… Special thanks to Shankha for listening to me and telling: “You are liked for your qualities but loved for your shortcomings” Gradually I found it beautiful. And also gratified to songs: 1.Walking Away – By Craig David 2. Aaj kal Zindagi – From Wake up Sid Which helped me overcome – Wo khat ke purze uda raha tha, Havao ka rukh dikha raha tha, Usi ka iman badal gaya hai, Kabhi jo mera khuda raha tha……

Words are magical, They make wonders n do miracle, Though u never thought before, Will it give happiness galore, If you say, ‘I love you’, And receive ‘Same to you’ So if someone says ‘Tek care’, Let few moments spare, ‘Same to you’ sounds so bare.. Words bring near, Words create distance, Keep us waiting for hours/instance, Did u see my 'no' had a reluctance… It’s as simple as any other thing, Like the songs which your lips sing, Aren't they words which touch heart's string? Words hurt but words heal, Try their best to give their feel, Not always in their hands to hide/reveal.. Words laugh, Words cry, Scared of failure but always try, I said it all though I was shy… Words enjoy and words bore, Unlike applied and core, I am going out of track, Hope readers don’t sore.. Words true and Words fake, Better than love based on: ‘Give and Take’ If you can't keep anything at stake, How can you expect ...